Thursday, May 28, 2009

Amazing Journey

Yesterday was absolutely, with out question - one of the most amazing experiences of your lives. We were vulnerable. We were nervous. We were emotional and hope that God was glorified in all of our actions.

The expectant mom was adorable, spunky, outgoing and kind. She would like to meet with us again next week...We just can't wait!

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. We felt your Love and Support the entire time.

What now? Now we jump in full-bore, buckle in our seats and hold on...knowing full well that God is in complete control.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Going to meet our daughter

Yesterday afternoon I went to see the new Terminator movie with my good friend Brian. Today so far has been like most Wednesdays; morning bible study (James 1) and sending ads with weekend deadlines and talking on the phone with friends. In a few hours we are going to meet an expectant mom and talk about adopting her baby. How are we feeling? A little nervous quite frankly. Our hope is that we can be as transparent as possible with her. Will she see how much we care for her and her child? We sure hope so. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for this meeting, for the mom and for the baby. This has been an amazing day. Regardless of the outcome we thank God for it.

Monday, May 25, 2009

What I did on my long weekend

Yep it was a crafter's paradise here at the Bublitz home over the weekend.

To prepare for our meeting this week we were asked to put together a little photo album of our life. So off I went to the Michael's store to get some ideas. The next thing I knew...I was smack dab in the middle of scrapbook heaven or *&%# (depending on whether or not you are a scrapbooker or not)

I stumbled into a scrapbooking store and knew I was in trouble - Cropping...what the heck is cropping? I paid the Fee just to find out. 4 hours later I was heading home with my very own custom design photo album...Kind of...well the book was in pieces and I spent the next 48 building page by page...then the pictures.

Have you every tried putting the last 12 years of your life in a tiny little photo album? It was challenging tough but so much fun!

Monday, May 18, 2009

Big News

This morning we received big news that our dossier was received and logged in on 4/7/09.

But wait there's more. We also received a call from Christian Family Care Agency. There is an expecting mom that wants to meet with us next week.

God is good.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy BirthMOTHERS Day

I found this poem that a Birth Mother wrote about her adoption experience; What a great example of Gods Grace. To my MOM and all you MOM's out there....


As I meditate on what this day means to me, birthMOTHERS Day; there are so many things I would like to share, but it's hard to find the right words to say.

Sometimes I run or hide from these feelings because they are so strong;">yet inside my heart emotions are constantly singing as a bird's soothing song.

I must tell of this journey into birth motherhood; about the sadness, the sweetness, the bad and the good.

I must trust that my voice will carry along; to another birthmother in need of this song.

I could speak of the heart wrenching time during early pregnancy; when I could barely see straight from the pain and agony.

I was in definite denial; but I was being prepared for a life-changing trial. I felt so confused and angry; that I had allowed this circumstance to happen to me.

There was no way to know at that point in time; how God would turn this into something divine. This decision making process was not an easy one; yet hope shined on even throughout this rainy time as certain as the soft warm sun.

God was using me as a way to carry a child into the world and bring forth life;but if I chose to parent him it would be one filled with anger and strife.

I never once thought that I could raise this child because I, myself was not equipped to; so now it was up to me -what would I do??

I really had to search myself and find support,although my world was spinning; I had to realize that another precious life was just beginning. Maybe for some the choice to place a baby is filled with regret; yet I knew that he deserved way more than if he stayed with me what he would get.

To you I say, "The details of where my life was headed at that time might not be the issue; yet I trusted that another family could love you and offer you that which I could not give you.

My baby, birth child, you deserved the family, love, devotion, time, patience, energy, consistency, opportunity; trustworthiness, connection and stability that -at that time- with me were not a possibility.

Some have asked me if I ever regret this choice;and I will always continue to use my voice. The answer is no I most definitely do not; though it is normal to wonder at times where would we be if my choice was naught.

I cannot burden my heart with these types of worry, doubt and grief; I need to make room inside of me for the love I have for this child, the joy and the relief.

I feel such peace within my heart; knowing we will never truly be apart.

Trusting in God's plan and in the universe to provide; my baby's family is raising him with love, honesty and pride.

I'm blessed to know that he is okay; and I would like to share this experience that I have been through with others today.

In honor of Mothers no matter what your situation,

I would like to say;that I wish you a truly blessed, fulfilling, and peaceful BirthMothers Day!